. . . And Then There Was Me . . .

Only those of us who have gone through it can really understand it. Depression is one of those things you have to experience to fully appreciate.
What kills you is the ultimate feeling of loneliness. Like you are the only person in the world. Or that no one cares about you. It is a feeling of total seperation from people around you; friends, family, co-workers. You feel worthless or you undervalue yourself. You doubt your abilities and how much you might mean to others.
You try so hard to reach out for some type of human contact. Some indication that there is a someone there to catch you when you feel unsteady. You know there is someone, but still you doubt.
Doubt. Another way to sum up what depression is like. Never ending doubt. Doubt and lonliness. Twin killers.
Depression isn't a momentary moment of sadness. It is a condition that needs to be treated. Those of us who suffer from depression know it is an uphill struggle each day. We mostly hide in the shadows that something is wrong. We fight a silent battle against an enemy that exists only in our own minds.
A battle I intend to ultimately win.